Dissolved by Allison Grayhurst
A weighted shadow was on my back,
triumphant, feeding off of me
in day-to-day thoughts,
dealings at the grocery store,
It flourished its victory everywhere I went,
in the judgement of strangers and the shame I bore,
wearied by reality.
It was thirsty, thirsty for the substance of my faith,
feasting on the debauchery of my despair and in that feast,
it grew four times its original size,
cementing my wings in permanent collapse.
Now this weighted shadow is dissolving, swiftly
in glorious movements of clear! clear! clear!
It has not gone completely yet, but I am stretching,
able to raise my neck and strengthen my shoulders.
My fears are painless, grace has entered
and brought the promise forward.
Under my eyelids shapes are forming,
ones I have never known –
tribes of mighty animals and
communities of celestials.
We say hello.
We walk on the fresh born grass,
and the grass morphs into a mountain,
with a valley,
with a river.
©2020 Allison Grayhurst
Allison Grayhurst is a member of the League of Canadian Poets. Four of her poems were nominated for “Best of the Net” in 2015/2018, and one eight-part story-poem was nominated for “Best of the Net” in 2017. She has over 1,260 poems published in more than 490 international journals and anthologies.
In 2018, her book Sight at Zero, was listed #34 on CBC’s “Your Ultimate Canadian Poetry List”.
Recently, her work has being translated into Chinese and published in “Rendition of International Poetry Quarterly” and in “Poetry Hall”.
Her book Somewhere Falling was published by Beach Holme Publishers, a Porcepic Book, in Vancouver in 1995. Since then she has published sixteen other books of poetry and six collections with Edge Unlimited Publishing. Prior to the publication of Somewhere Falling she had a poetry book published, Common Dream, and four chapbooks published by The Plowman. Her poetry chapbook The River is Blind was published by Ottawa publisher above/ground press December 2012. In 2014 her chapbook Surrogate Dharma was published by Kind of a Hurricane Press, Barometric Pressures Author Series. In 2015, her book No Raft – No Ocean was published by Scars Publications. Also, her book Make the Wind was published in 2016 by Scars Publications. As well, her book Trial and Witness – selected poems, was published in 2016 by Creative Talents Unleashed (CTU Publishing Group). More recently, her book Tadpoles Find the Sun is soon to be published by Cyberwit, August 2020. She is a vegan. She lives in Toronto with her family. She also sculpts, working with clay; www.allisongrayhurst.com