The Unwashed Monologue by Joel Schueler
You can relax.
This isn’t another poem
about love. Nor of pursuits
for that end, nor is it about loveless
that’s a lie.
Actually it is.
Should I part ways
with concealed knowledge
of the planets or a faraway star
and send them on their way
to the cochleae of sweet ears
you possess to impress
you with my secret life
as an unfledged amateur scientist,
then arouse your mind
by filling it
with scientific questions of the day?
Should I tell you
of my recent infrequent exercise
that may have slightly toned
a hidden body beneath baggy clothes?
Do you seek out truth
on your own or do you require a nudge?
How much do you really want the truth at all
if all it serves to do
is make us both worse off.
Have you been fooled by many men before
who have put up a brilliant front
in their own concealment of
behavioural nasties and hapless insecurities.
If so, did you like them anyway?
Did you like that they had lied
so desperate for your kiss?
Would you have preferred they had
told their truth
getting them nowhere,
anywhere but here,
listening to my monologue.
There is no resolution;
no happy ending to this poem.
I just want your truth
can you help with mine?
I thought about ending the poem there,
I probably normally would,
but some force kept me on.
I don’t know where this poem is going anymore.
To tell you the truth
I never really did.
I will not ask you to help with it.
Just do me this honour, if you will:
to ask to watch you in your element
would seem too clichéd (this is a poem remember,
or at any rate that is how it has dressed today.)
‘I thought you said it was a monologue,’ you say.
I told you I was
never much good
at this business
of telling the truth,
and you cannot interrupt me,
this is a monologue.
Instead what I ask of you
is to show me where your work finds you
or to take me on a trip to a passionate pastime
I will watch;
©2020 Joel Schueler
Joel’s poems appear in ten countries in over thirty publications including Pennsylvania Literary Journal and The Brasilia Review. From London, he has a BA(Hons) in English Literature & Creative Writing from the University of Wales, Aberystwyth.